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Authenticity

(The first in a series of catch-up blogs inspired by a weekend at the Omega Yoga Service Conference.)

There’s something thoroughly disarming about authenticity.

With no ulterior motives, no painting of facades, all you’re left with is pure, unadulterated self-ness.  Children have it down pat (a point not unrelated to the linguistic origins of the word ‘unadulterated!’) – they show up sans filters, developing brains and personalities blossoming right before our eyes.

Finding authenticity in an adult may come easy to some; if you’re in a position of service, medical, social or otherwise, you may find authentic people cross your path on a relatively regular basis.  Needing help is another distinctly disarming state of being.  Thinking back on my days working in the music and film industry – before I knew the first thing about satya (the yogic concept of truth in thought, word and action) – I found authenticity hard to come by.  It was one of the reasons I decided to focus on meatier endeavours.

Authenticity is pretty simple, as a concept.  The Oxford Dictionary defines authenticity as “of undisputed origin; genuine.”

The real deal, no fakers need apply.  Knowing where you came from and who you are.  Authenticity is all about walking your talk, your thoughts, words and actions in alignment.  It might sound easy, but so much wisdom sounds simpler than its application in real life, especially if you’ve spent years building protective walls, creating self-serving narratives, or trying to be someone you are not – in other words, being human.

As an adult, to be authentic requires a distinct knowledge of self, as in whole self, all those layers of thought, emotion, impulse, memory, physicality and vibe we’ve formulated over the years.  It takes mindful observation to become aware of how our “many selves” interact with one another and the external world, and then keen viveka (discernment) to determine what is “true” and what is not truly “self,” and where the contradictions in self might lie.  And even after all that work’s been done (well, it’s never really done!), then there’s the sometimes painful next step: transparency.  The process ebs and flows in a cyclical way, a never-ending life project of sorts – thank Jah for sangha!

DSC06601This weekend I had the joy of meeting Nikki Myers, a former addict who, despite her professional and academic achievements, experienced struggle after struggle keeping clean.  Nikki opened by making her “failures” just as known as her successes, because at the end of the day, everything we’ve done up until now has helped to bring us to where we are.

And where Nikki is now sounds pretty amazing.  She tours the country educating people about addiction and yoga, and is the director of a renowned yoga-inspired relapse prevention program for addicts in Indiana based on the 12 step program.  The workshop with her this weekend was full of heartfelt story-sharing, some of the science behind addiction, and an in-depth presentation of how yoga philosophy relates to addiction, its causes, symptoms and treatments.  The Y12SR program she created with her now ex-boyfriend is multi-substance, open to both addicts and their immediate circle, and references Patanjali’s Yoga Sutras specifically in both intention (“Future suffering can be avoided.” 2:16) and diagnosis (1:30).  Although we only got a trailer to the epic that is Nikki’s offering, I left the room feeling comforted in the depth and scope of her service .

That very same day was the birthday of my Aunty Gail, a former addict herself, who saved me from drowning when I was five years old, right on the beach in front of my grandmother’s house.  Aunty Gail passed away in her sleep due to complications with her prescribed psychiatric drugs.  I couldn’t help but wonder what might have been if I had known about yoga as a treatment for addiction 15 years ago.

But the past is the past, and the present is exactly that: a present.  Similarly, authenticity can be seen as a gift, an offering to your true self, and to whomever you cross paths with.  Allowing your unique light to shine isn’t always easy, until you’re willing to let go of ego’s firm grasp on pride or self-pity, or whatever else might be filtering your flow.    Through yoga we get there . . .

Shine on, sister, and thank you for the reminder.

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11 thoughts on “Authenticity”

  1. this is a great post. true authenticity, IMHO, takes a great deal of courage in addition to true self awareness, wrapped in honor. i wish aunty gail had had access to more tools and better alternatives too; her life shone so brightly and her love was so pure. nikki myers sounds like she is a similar soul, armed with an arsenal of tools with which to protect her true self. how amazing that someone like nikki can verbalize her journey so well and inspire others to develop their own methods by which to see and embrace their own true selves.

  2. Nikki was my teacher while living in Indiana. She introduced me to the practice and to many life lessons through her brilliant soul. Until I read this, I could never quite put into words why I’m so adamant about studying with a teacher that has the star-aligned spiritual energy she has. To this day, she is with my every posture. I love you Nikki. Thanks for the beautiful post.

    1. Hi Stephen – big mahalos for sharing your experience with Nikki! I know how that feels, to have a teacher with you along the way. I can still hear Lisa Schrempp when I practice asana, lighting a flame, motivating and encouraging me to this day. You really can’t beat a solid teacher – such a gift!

    1. Hi Barbara – thanks for reading the piece and confirming its contents :) Nikki has touched – and connected – so many souls. Jai, jai!

    1. Teo, thanks for reading! It was so nice to connect and experience all the goodness at Omega this weekend. Blessings, and I hope your arm feels better soon :)

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